Back to Zero

It feels like I'm going back to the zero point. I'm starting again. It's late I worried they won't accept. But, I must do it. I know it's going to be hard. I choose this way so this is the consequence. I need many supports.

It feels like I'm swallowing my pride. But that's okay if it can make my parents happy. I pray.. I pray.. Please give me one more chance...

Minhyuk Birthday Message

After Seohyun served fans with her birthday pictures, Minhyuki aka Seohyun's twins (ㅋㅋㅋ) tweets his birthday message too..

여러분~! 제 생일을 맞아서 저의 작은 미니어처와 함께 사진찍었어요ㅋㅋ 넝쿨당 첫등장 의상, 포즈와 똑같은 모습이에요ㅋㅋ
이 외에도 축하해준 모든분들께 감사드리고 팬여러분 씨엔블루 가족 내친구들 모두 사랑해요 베이징 공연장에서 봐요! http://twitpic.com/czivc0



Everyone! On my birthday I took a picture with my small miniature ㅋ ㅋ It's first appearance costume, pose and appearance and it's all the same ㅋ ㅋ
In addition,thank to all fans who celebrate my birthday with CNBLUE , I love all my friends and family. See you in Beijing concert!

Seohyun Birthday Message

Today is Seohyun birthday.. Chukkae...!!! She left message in gg official web.

[From. SEOHYUN] ♥

여러분~!!정말.. 감사합니다..
6월 28일 저 서현, 서주현 이라는 사람의 탄생을 축복해 주셔서..
저의 인생에서 정말 소중한 한 부분을 잊을 수 없는 사랑으로 채워주셔서..
되돌릴 수 없고 멈출 수도 없고 지울 수도 없는 지금 이순간을 함께 해주셔서 감사합니다.

언제나 이런 생각을 합니다. 내가 과연 이렇게 큰 사랑을 받을 자격이 있을까?
내가 혹시라도 이분들에게 실망을 드리면 어떻게 하지?..
늘 감사함과 중압감은 존재하지만 그럴 때 마다
지금 제가 사랑을 받고 있다는 사실 하나만으로
제 인생은 굉장한 가치가 있다는 것을 깨닫게 됩니다..

모두를 만족 시키는 사람이 될 수는 없지만
한번이라도 저를 통해 작은 미소를 지어주시는 분이 계시다면
그것 만으로 저는 정말 행복합니다.
제가 더 노력 할게요! 사랑해요♥

http://girlsgeneration.smtown.com/Link/Board/3465614

Translation:

[From. SEOHYUN] ♥

Everyone~!! Really.. Thank you..
For blessing mine, Seohyun’s, a person named Seo Juhyun’s birth on June 28th..
For filling a very important part of my life with an unforgettable love..
Thank you for being together with me on this irreversible, unstoppable, and unerasable moment.

I always think about something. Do I really have the right to receive such a great love like this?
What do I do if I were to, by chance, disappoint these people?..
While gratefulness and pressure always exist, every one of those times
with just the fact that I am receiving love right now
I realize that my life has a tremendous amount of value..

While I can’t become someone who can please everyone
If there is anyone who can smile just once because of me
I’m really happy with that alone.
I’ll work harder! I love you♥

Curriculum 2013

My youngest sister always sent me some text messages lately, asking me 'what are you doing?'s question every day. ㅋㅋㅋ

Well, she doesn't go to school since it's holiday. Err.. She'll go to school again next month and she will in her second year of Junior High School. Speaking of which, for the next academic year, some schools in Indonesia will use new curriculum. Yeah... new curriculum. curriculum 2013.

Actually, I don't have any idea about this curriculum. I asked my Dad some days ago, and he told me generally. There will be some subjects which added its time in a week, such as PPKN and Pendidikan Agama. PPKN, yeah, we're back to the old terms. We're not using Pendidikan Kewarganearaan anymore, instead of Pendidikan Pancasila dan Kewarganegaraan. I'm anticipating a concrete action. It's a pity and tragedy in my opinion every time I read newspaper. Criminals are every where, even the last news I remember was about a junior sell his school friends to those 'man with money'. What Indonesia will be in  the future?

Not many parents aware the important of religion in their children life. Not many parents send their children to Madrasah Diniyah Awaliyah (MDA) after regular school. The school which acquired many energy of the students was also doesn't help at all.

When I was child, I still had time to play and go to MDA. My youngest sister? No, she doesn't. Her energy was drained out in the school with tasks and home works. That's why the adding time for Pendidikan Agama in this curriculum, gives me a bit assurance, that students will learn about their religion better. Though I still suggest them to go to MDA instead.

Anyway, welcome to the new curriculum. If you want to know about curriculum 2013, you can access HERE.

Hangul Fonts

Those pictures above were some of those many Hangul Fonts I found yesterday. They're so cute~~~!! Kawaaaiii. I've been searching many kinds of Hangul fonts, but never find the cute ones. Finally!!! Yeahh, finally!!! So, if you want to download those cute fonts, you can visit HERE.

Walking in the Same Spot

A friend of mine came from Jakarta yesterday. She asked me and the others to meet her to eat and caught up the latest news of us. Only six of us were there. We'd changed. No. They'd changed. I just realize that I'm the one who still in the same spot as them two years ago.

I'm not talking about physical appearance, though some of us getting skinnier or chubbier (I think they won't please if I said they're getting fattier). That's true, though. But I'm talking about mentally. Meeting them made me realize that I was left behind, that I was just walking on the same spot all this while. Thanks to you my friends. Now, I'll catch up what I missed along your journey. Wait me there and please support me.

Awesome Abilities and Justice

Recently I watched this drama, I Hear Your Voice. The main role, Park Sooha has this ability, can hear someone's thought if he focus at that person. I begin to think that how awesome that ability if it was used by a nice people. Moreover in this country. I bet those corrupts had been behind the jail already right now. Hehehe..

Sadly, it is just a fantasy drama. People seems more believe in shaman than God. And Justice? Only people with money where justice belong to. Poor people? Just don't make any mistake or you'll end up rotten in jail for years long, even if it's just stealing sweet potatoes to fill their empty stomach.

It's not that I'm allowing any kind of criminality. No. It's just that... I find it cruel reality where those people who's praised by the citizen actually steal their money.

Then again, what if... there's someone who have that awesome ability, he/she can use it to find the truth. Who's the real criminals and this country would be in peace. How wonderful it is.

The 'A' Men in My Life

I don't know where should I start this post. It's about some guys in my life. Some guys who left unique impression in my life. Starting from high school until now. Coincidentally, their nickname was started with "A" letter. I realized it long ago.

The first A, okay, to make it easy, I call him A1. A1 was my sunbae in high school. I knew him when we're in the same class for semester exam. The rule was, a class divided into two which is one with the sophomore class and the other part with class 3. Well, since I'm in the first part, I sat with a sunbae in sophomore class. This A1 sunbae sat in front of me with my friend. We had a week for exam.

It was started when we would have chemistry exam. In the morning, when I arrived at class, I saw him was studying with my seatmate sunbae. I sat there as usual. Then he asked (I didn't know to whom) what "Al" was? Then I blurted out that it's aluminium. I was so embarrassed I hit my mouth and hid my face. Kkkkk...

After that day, I always watched his every move. What his subject that day? What time he arrived at school? Did he go to school by bike or walking? -which then I knew he walked from his home-, and so on.

Sharing Happiness

My mother called me. We talked many things. Just hearing her voice make me miss her terribly. I think I live here a bit longer than I expected. To think about it, I once dreamed I'll finish college as soon as possible. I, however, felt a need to rebel. I don't know. I just felt like to do it.

I always listen what they're saying, but somehow I missed something. What I want to do in my life. This life won't repeat. I must do what I want. In the other hand, I'm scared I disappoint my parents.

Anyway....!!! She told me that many of neighborhood asked her to teach their children. Open a tutorial for them and share what her children get in school. Hmm... I suddenly remember on of my dreams. Should I realize it? I mean, for mother, for them as well.

It's true that most of the children in my neighborhood do not get many experience in school. I mean, they're mostly stop visiting school in junior or high school. Which is they want to work as soon as possible. My friends too, they got to work after graduate from high school. It's not that I despise their decision. I know their condition as well. Which is it not let them to continue to go to college.

Well, I think I have to think about my mother (secret) request. For me, I think it's a good opportunity for me, since I'm not familiar with them. Heol!! Where I live since forever?!!

For now, I think I get a light. Something I want to do after graduate. I hope it'll work.

Yonghwa Birthday Cake

Just arrived from watching theatrical of my friend. Although I didn't really know the plot, it was fun after all. ^^

It's been a long time since I watch theatrical. Hmmm... three years ago?

Upon arriving a handsome guy welcome me. Kkkkkk... Kidding. I mean, I opened my Facebook account and Yonghwa oppa was smiling in front of many cake.

안녕하세요 여러분! ㅋ제가 태어난 6월 22일입니다! 여러분들이 해주시는 축하인사와 응원이 많이 힘이됩니다! ㅋ다시한번 감사드립니다.! 곧 북경콘서트네요! 공연에서 정말재미있게 열심히 노래할게요! 기다려주세요!ㅋㅋ 많은 사랑 다시한번감사드립니다. 이 감사함이 모두 전해지길!!!ㅋ
여러분 모두다 오늘 행복한 하루가 되었으면 좋겠어요!!!!! Thank you!!!

A friend message me. She told me that bears and the yellow cake was from Indonesian Boice. Woohoooo!! Although I didn't participate, I felt proud just to know that was from Indonesia. Indonesian Boice jjang!!!
Oh! By the way, Yonghwa looked younger with the outfit. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[One-Shot] 그럴 겁니다... 잊을 겁니다...

Characters: Jung Yonghwa, Seo Juhyeon, Im Yoona, Lee Jonghyun, Choi Siwon, Hwang Tiffany, Kim Taeyeon, Park Shinhye
Genre: Romance, Angst
Rating: G

January2013

Winter is always cold. I should’ve known it. I, however, sat here on the bench in the park wearing nothing but tiny pajamas. I must been crazy. People who see me must be thinking I’m crazy. They’re right though. Yes, I’m crazy and it is because of him.

~~~

I ran briskly everywhere. It had been an hour and I didn’t found Seohyun yet. I started to get panic and worried. Seohyun had to be alright. Seohyun had to be okay. Seohyun had to be fine. I chanted those words several times, praying for my best friend.

The snow flurries got heavier and heavier and I couldn’t help but worried even more. Seohyun only wore tiny pajamas as she ran suddenly after hearing the news. I was near burst in tears when I got a call from Jonghyun.

“Yeoboseyo?”

“I found her.” Jonghyun informed, sending relieve sighed to me.

“Where is she now? She’s alright, right?”

“We’re in the Seoul Hospital right now. She fainted.”

I ran like a mad woman, cursing all the way to hospital while tears kept falling down on my cheek. “I should be more careful.” I cursed and wiped tears which stubbornly kept race along.

I never felt a journey from my neighborhood to hospital could take long time. “Ahjeossi. Can you drive faster please?” I got impatient.

I ran into receptionist asking for patient named Seo Juhyeon. After got the info, I ran immediately.

I saw Jonghyun was sitting on the seat. “Jonghyun-ah!!” I ran to him. “How is she? What doctor says?” I asked panic.

응답하라 2013 aka Reply 2013 ~ Chapter 01: Eighteen

Characters: Jung Yonghwa, Seo Juhyeon, Lee Jonghyun, Im Yoona, Kang Minhyuk, Lee Jungshin, Park Shinhye

Genre: Romance, Fluff

Rating: General

Summer, Seoul 2023

“Ahjeossi, Hongdae please.” Seohyun talked back to her phone, persuading her sunbae. “Algeuseubnida eonni.” She used her ultimate aegyo. “I promise tomorrow the script will be ready.. Ne~.. Ne~.. Yeokshi. Eonni jjang!!!” The call then end, Seohyun sighed in relieve.

There’s some ways to escape from stress my job give to me. Go to noraebang and get drunk or watching marathon my favorite drama. Twenty-eight. An age where we can’t say that we’re exchanging nostalgia yet –our teenage were still too bright for that. If our bodies can’t go back, at least our souls can. Right now, I’m going back to our teenage, our high school time.

The taxi stopped in front of a café. After paid the bill, Seohyun stepped out and stretched her hands. Her job was really made her body worn out. She walked into restaurant and outside there’s a board written ‘The 54^th High School Friends’ Reunion Dinner for Busan Gwangnan High’.

As she entered the café, she was welcomed by her old friends. She took a seat in the nearest empty chair as she tossed her hands to her friends.

[One-Shot] Coffee Prince

Characters: Jung Yonghwa, Seo Juhyeon, Kang Minhyuk, Lee Jungshin
Genre: Romance
Rating: General

She sat again today, in a cozy café near her university, sat alone with some books in her hands and the table. No one accompany her, well, truthfully she was the one who rejected to be accompanied by her friends. She preferred to be alone.

She found it a little bit strange actually. She was never a fan of coffee, yet, here she was, sat comfortably with a cup of caramel macchiato which she believe never entered her mouth even touched her lips. She just loved the coffee aroma or it was just her excuse to be there.

Every time she visited the café, she chose to sit in the corner seat; with the dim light where she was sure no one would interrupt her, reading her favorite books. She was really doing it –reading her favorite books- until that man came and she decided to be a regular customer there. Her routine changed a bit. At first she was just sit there, took out the books and iPhone, turned her favorite music and lost in her own world. But now, she was sit , took the books and iPhone out, turned her favorite music, it was just lasted for ten minutes or some before her eyes secretly wandered around the café, trying to find a certain person.

Rain Tonight

It's getting late and it's raining outside. The wind blows really hard I feel cold. Guess I have to put two blankets to keep me warmth.

Rain. When it's rain I can't help but think about that person. A man who hurt me, once, no twice. Or maybe I'm just that stupid I let myself hurt-ed by him. Ha!

I filled my diary with his name and I remembered I praised him in every way. I should be blind at that time. No. He's not my boyfriend. He is just him. A man who managed to steal my heart in his cruel way.

I said cruel. Yes, he was. He was cruel, knowing my feeling but let me fly very high for him to drop me down I hurt very much. He was cruel, after broke up with his girlfriend he looked for me, getting close to me, again. He was cruel, not drawing a line and keep my heart not growing for him. He was cruel, he found another girl he forgot about me, totally.

Am I that easy to be played? Am I a toy or something?

I burned that diary. My heart squeezed and felt very heavy in pain every time I re-read again. Oh! I realize how foolish I was. How cruel he was.

I learn. I learn to forget about him. It's not easy since his Facebook account still everywhere I can see his update. Not to mention his lovey dovey mushy words with his current girlfriend.

Well, I got an advice from a friend. Pray for him. "Pray for him to be with that girl so he won't come back to you if he got dumped, again." At least, I know his pattern.

Anyway, thank you for the terrible experiences from you. I shake my head when I remember my stupidity for accused my best friend having a feeling for him. Ha!! Thanks to him I learn a lot.

Now, in the coldness of night, I pray for you. May you be happy with her and please please please don't look for me if *I hope not, really* she dumped you.

Good night to you, cruel man.

Itazura na Kiss ~ Love in Tokyo

Itazura na Kiss - Comic Version

Itazura na Kiss - 1996 Japanese Version

It's Started with A Kiss - Taiwanese Version

Playfull Kiss - Koeran Version

Itazura na Kiss ~ Love in Tokyo - 2013 Japanese Version

If you're a drama fan, I bet you're all know about Itazura na Kiss. I fell in love with this dorama when I watched it back then when I was errr... elementary school (?). The story is cute and romantic.

Takashi Kasiwabara (Naoki Irie) was so perfect for the character. He's handsome too. Ah! I guess he's an ahjussi right now? Kekekekee... Aiko Sato (Kotoko Aihara) too, she was cute and somehow portrait much her pabo character. *Mian*.

I notice in both Japanese Version, for Kotoko character, her ears. Is the character should have those... errr.. how I should say it? board? Okay.. board ears. I mean, take a look at Aiko and Honoko's ears. Well, Aiko's are boarder than Honoko's.

In ItaKiss 1996, I kinda disappointed with the ending. It left cliff hanging.

From "Running Man" to "Appa Eodiga?"

Back to two years ago, I found reality show to release my stress. It helped me so much since I didn't have TV in my boarding house. Well, my friend had but I didn't want to burden her every time I want to watch a show or drama or something else.

I fell for their funny games and they always brought laughter for me. It's interesting program. How I wish those television people here could make something like that. No. It's not that I suggest them to copy and paste their program. At least, they can less those crappy none sense drama (read: sinetron) which taught nothing but criminal. Sorry for putting those harsh word but, that's what I think. I hope they will make a good drama, someday. *let's pray together*

And then, I don't know, maybe.. I'm getting bored with the show since it's not always brought loud laughter for me anymore. Only when the guests were really funny or the games so none sense I can laugh.

Then I found Appa Eodiga? At first, I thought it was new drama, turned out it was a reality show. A new one. Honestly, I copy it from internet cafe just to kill my bored time. Funny how I ended up intrigued by those little kids with their innocent. I love them. Moreover, I can learn something positive. I take a note that communication is indeed important between kids and parents.

Seong Jun (Appa Eodiga) and Furukawa Yuki (Itazura Na Kiss ~ Love in Tokyo)

So.. I have been a fan of Appa Eodiga and Itazura na Kiss ~ Love in Tokyo.. and something bother me.. in a good way.

You all know that our Yuki aka Naoki Irie is really cute, isn't he? Hehehehe.. Well, I like how he plays as Naoki there, an inflexible and mean genius man. Well, isn't a person like him does really exist? Hmm..

Well, now let's take a look to one of the cast of Appa Eodiga. Sung Dongil's son, Seong Jun. He's like a chick boy there. He didn't talk much like the others and how his preference is much like an adult. LoL.

Somehow, I find these two people are look alike. Somehow I feel like seeing Jun's adult in Yuki and reverse, Yuki's child in Jun. Heheheee.. Well, if you don't agree with me is fine. It's just my opinion.

Anyway, i'm enjoying the shows so much.

Although I'm not a fan of Jun there (I'm rooting for Hoo and his love to Jia. Kkkkk...) but he's funny sometimes. I love the fact that he's getting closer to his dad, upon remembering in the first episode where he was, somehow, scared to his own appa. Now, when I watch it, they develop many good relationship.

And for Itazura na Kiss ~ Love in Tokyo. I'm sad since it's almost over. I'm curious whether there'll be after married story, just like in Korean version. Of all Itazura na Kiss versions, I love the Japanese so much. I don't know. It's a rare for me. Since I always looking for the handsome cast first. Well, Yuki is handsome and cute, isn't he? Maybe that's why I'm in love with this version. Hahahahaa..

In Korean version, Hyunjoong looks no good in uniform, methinks. Where in fact that Yuki and Hyunjoong are only a year apart. It's funny how Yuki is still looks like a high school student in his age. Kyaaaa~~!!!

Anyhow, who's agree that Jun and Yuki are look alike??!! Raise your hands~!!! ^^

Ideas!!! Where Are You?!

I have been reads many fanfics (read: fan fictions) stories. Yes, I'm a fan of those things. I learn so many new words, in English of course and various plots of stories. One of my favorites is Lady Lia. Yes, she's a fan of YongSeo. Me too. Well, aside from her rated story, I love how she described the setting, plots, characters and emotions of each roles. It seems life and I can imagine it right away.

Like a drama, I'm waiting her updates. Hihihihiii.. It sounds crazy but yeah.. that's the facts. She had many imaginations, ideas which make me wonder where she got it from. Hmm?

I'm trying to write stories too. I want to improve my skill. Learn how to describe it in letters. It's not easy since the idea in my head ran faster than my English skill. I always stuck in.. err... how should I describe it in words? Yeah.. something like that. It make me stress sometimes. Every time I write story and the response is good, I can't help but smile wider and wider. And then they asked me to write the sequel. If since the beginning I already prepare the sequel, then it's okay. It become problem, however, if I only got the idea in short time and I don't plan any further story ahead. Geezzz!! I hate it. i feel like disappointing my readers.

Ideas, they said you can find it anywhere, anytime. Are they?

For me, I usually get the idea when I listening to the songs.

Well, I think I'll just have to learn harder. I want to show to them, I can, I'm capable, that this is my thing.

FIGHTIIIIIINGGG~~!!!

Six to Sick

I had been here for a long time. Too much I want to stay here. I know my parents won't allow me to, but... ah! I don't know.

What am I doing? Learning something they want to, not me. What am I doing? Do they know what I want? Once more I think about it deeply. This is not what I want. But I had been trapped in this labyrinth for years. I had some unconscious moment when I want to rest... want to rebel. Yet... I think I didn't express it correctly I'm in the pain.

What will I do? Teach? No. It's what they want. Not me.